I found the time today, and after a lazy nap, I relived the film. I just wanted to browse through it, but I didn't expect to watch it again. Is this just because I want to watch it again, even though I know the plot, I am still attracted to it?
The first time was last Saturday night, alone, after the self-study was over. I didn't expect much, so I got a lot of shocks. This film broke my daily routine. I saw two points in one breath and then fell asleep with many thoughts and emotions.
Maggie is very charming! She is not beautiful, and she was not famous at all before being trained by Frankie. She has no prominent family background. On the contrary, she has a group of selfish and lazy family members.
"I’m 32, Mr. Deng. I’m here to celebrate. I spent another year washing dishes and being a waitress. I’ve been doing this since I was 13 years old. According to your theory, I can’t play before the age of 37. A decent punch. After hitting this pear ball for a month, no progress has been made. I now realize that God’s reality may be like this. The other reality is that my brother is in prison and my sister pretends to be one of hers. The child is still alive, fraudulent welfare payments, my father is dead, my mother weighs 312 pounds. If I am sane, I should go home. Find a second-hand mobile home, buy a fryer, and some sandwich biscuits. The problem is, this is the only thing I like to do. If I am too old for boxing, then I have nothing. Are you satisfied now?"
The initial shock came from this passage. I like movies because it can use dialogue, actions and scenes to portray the experience of a person so deeply, and to portray each story so moving in a short period of time. This dialogue is also a rare manifestation of Maggie's life experience in the film. Looking at the subtitles, I let the Buddha see another myself. In other words, she insinuates the unsatisfactory things that many people have. Reality did not open a window for her in advance, a window through which she hoped to see the sun. The only thing she can do is to pursue her dream, and find Mr. Frankie herself, insisting on hoping that he can train herself so that what she likes (the only thing she likes) proves that she is not rubbish. Her situation is many times worse than that of many viewers, and her persistence and perseverance are ten million times more than ours.
Mr. Frankie is a very strange guy, an excellent wound caregiver, and an excellent boxer trainer. Going to the church every day made the priest very impatient with him. Pray for my daughter, write to her every week, but always "return the sender". I love boxing, but I always read books and learn Gaul poetically. For him, even after watching it the second time, he still can't fully understand the meaning of this character. It is such a stubborn and outstanding person who was also moved by Maggie's persistence and finally trained this "girl".
However, for a girl with talent, persistence and personality, the ending that God arranged for her was completely beyond my imagination. The tragedy began after the bitch whore Billy violated the rules and punched her from the back of Maggie: this The despicable blow and the chair that could not be removed in the future caused Maggie's spine to be broken beyond repair.
The scenery boxer who used to knock down his opponent three times on the boxing ring, until now, he has to supply oxygen through the oxygen tube for 24 hours, and his whole body is unable to move. No matter what he does, a large group of people have to be in a mess for a long time. Even sitting on a chair took an hour’s waste, Maggie said, "I have to lie down like this for the rest of my life." Seeing this, my heart broke.
My mother often said similar things. She asked me, what if my mother doesn't get better all the time? She asked me, why can't her right eye be opened? Why is it less and less visible? She also said that she couldn't do it anymore, let us take care of her like a baby. When Frankie watched a group of caregivers put Maggie from the bed on the wheelchair after being busy, his eyes reminded me of me, my sister’s, my dad’s, all I saw my mother do. Son of the person. I remember once I went home to get a meal. When I went back to the hospital and entered the ward, I saw all the nurses huddling in front of my mother’s bed. My mother was shaking all over. The nurses might be giving her an injection or measuring something. In fact, I didn’t even know they were there. What to do, only knowing that I had no idea at that time, completely stupid!
Maggie asked Frankie to end her life, Frankie immediately replied, "Don't even think about it. Please, don't beg me." The
priest was finally willing to listen to him. "She wants to die now, and I just want to keep her. By my side. I swear to God, Father, it’s a crime to do so. To let her live is actually killing her. Do you understand? How can I overcome it?"
"You don't need it, you don't intervene, Frankie , Leave her to God."
"She didn't ask God for help, she asked me for help."
"For 23 years, I can see you at Mass almost every day, Frankie. Only those who can't forgive themselves for certain things do so frequently. Come to the church. No matter what kind of sin you have borne, it cannot be compared with this. Forget about God, heaven and hell. If you do that, you will be lost, deeply lost, so deep that you will never find it again. I don't know myself anymore."
"I think I am already."
I never know whether the priest approves of Frankie's doing it or disagrees. It was just that he did it last, telling her that "Mo cuishle" means "My darling, my blood", and then unplugged her breathing tube and gave her an injection of adrenaline several times the amount needed. Then no one could find Frankie. He didn't know whether he spent the rest of his life in the cabin that Maggie and Maggie had dreamed of together, or what happened. This is the end of the story.
What made Frankie finally decide to help Maggie free? Is Maggie's unbearable feeling for herself, who has become a crippled person, is she trying to commit suicide again and again, or what does the priest's words imply? I can't figure it out all the time. All I can know is that the calm scene tells me that Maggie went to sleep quietly. She was better than her mother, because her mother was still in extreme pain in the end. The pain of cancer makes it worse than death. Even the painkillers can't stop the pain. She left me in a twisted struggle, unable to speak, just sobbing.
We eventually lost our mother, even though we were crazy to keep her. Just like seeing Maggie with a breathing tube, I always hope that the director can arrange a genius doctor to help Maggie get better, even if he can't return to the stadium, he can be like a normal person, able to take care of himself, and simply live a normal life. As I said to my mother, if you can't eliminate the bad guys from your body, even if you take them with you, as long as you can live steadily. But none of this idea was satisfied.
Maybe both mother and Maggie are in heaven, a place we all hope we can go to in the future, but don't want to go at all now. Is there a place to escape suffering? As Dongzai and Xiao Budian said, maybe that's a kind of relief? No one can tell me the answer. I can't let it go. Like Frankie, I just want to keep her by my side!
However, the old boxer kept talking about opportunities. Maggie thanked Frankie because Frankie gave her a chance. Frankie was relieved because he gave himself a chance. The comfort of the old boxer was that he had a chance to fight, but it was a pity that this opportunity made him no longer have any chance. What kind of entanglement is this?
Perhaps, although my mother did not enjoy the happiness in her old age, we all love her. Just like Maggie, although she failed to beat the bitch Billy to the ground and couldn't get up again, she had and seized this opportunity. She told Frankie that I got everything I wanted, and this is not what I want now.
Maybe it's complete.
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