From France to Halifax and then to Barbados, she pursued her all the way, lying, begging, crying, crazy, and doing all she could to get a little attention and love from that man. In the end, he just despised her, despised her, insulted her, used her, and finally escaped her. On the streets of Barbados, Hiramatsu wanted to step forward to warn her not to be entangled in this way, but he did not expect that Adele, who had been madly obsessed with him, had his eyes turned away and no longer greeted him with fanatic affection every time he appeared. Without making any response, he walked straight across the corner. He was left standing there alone, at a loss. Once he was the one who was deeply loved and was constantly pursued, and he dismissed this steadfast love, even crushed and kicked it under his feet. Now when he is truly lost, he has lost something. , As if he was the abandoned party. No one can pursue, wait, and love him so passionately like Adele. It's like the novelist Al in "A Letter from a Strange Woman". He has been silently in love with a woman he never knows for his whole life, but he doesn't know about it and ignores her again and again, even if he has been with her. Living together, you can also pass her without looking back, as easily as passing a puddle of sewage, but she always looks back and waits again and again. Until one day of death annihilated her waiting posture, she no longer needed to be silent, no more humble begging. She used her death to let him know that this kind of deep and lasting love was something he once possessed but never cherished, and finally it was silently lost without any chance to retain it. He was frightened, he felt the emptiness in his soul, and was shocked by the enthusiasm blown from another century, which could not be calmed for a long time.
If love is an affair of waiting, usually the one who falls into love is the one who is waiting. Waiting for people to dare not move, the lover's inadvertent one-minute delay will make people feel anxious, the world's center of gravity is completely tilted, it seems to be all concentrated at the moment when he (she) appears, embracing the full of love from uncontrollable hesitation It is liberated from it, "just like the arrow endures the tension of the bow, so that the moment it shoots surpasses itself". But sometimes it is said that it is not good who is the waiting party, precisely because she (he) is the waiting party, and the one who gives all the enthusiasm, she (he) can also decide to become the one who no longer waits at any time. Whether it is the princesses and soldiers in the "Paradise Cinema" or the romantic celebrities and prostitutes described by Roland Barthes, they all tell a common story: a man is infatuated with a woman, and the condition for her to agree to this love is that he sits. Wait a hundred nights downstairs. On the ninety-ninth night, the man got up and left. The story came to an abrupt end. Even other viewers who weren’t the woman could easily experience the feeling of loss—great enthusiasm slowly accumulates, and when it swells to a maximum limit, Suddenly disappeared out of thin air. Who is the one waiting for love? Is it the receiver or the giver?
Love is an unpredictable existence, it is as high as the king. When it prays for mercy and desires attention, it has penetrated into the blood of the other party. This pursuit is a kind of power in itself. It only shows its power when it flies out of the bowstring like an arrow from the string and can never be recovered. Neither the French Hiramatsuka nor the novelist Al, have never realized how different the world they are loved is. Those women who love them have created a secret and gentle world, and sweetly melted their lives without knowing it. , Even the sound sleep in the afternoon seemed to be so peaceful under some protection. Just like the white rose that Al would receive on his birthday every year, it is a silent existence, dispensable decorations, but it occupies only one day of living space each year in his life, but after it disappears, it beats with endless love. His heart let him know how his life was filled and loved by his beloved.
"When you feel longing, love of a woman singing on it;
because of their famous passion is still not immortal singing.
Abandoned and miserable woman (you almost envy them),
They can love more purely than those who are satisfied. "——Fujiwara
Chiyoko in Rilke's "Millennium Actress 2001" (Millennium Actress 2001) interprets this kind of unrequited love in a purer and more intense way. What she has spent her life pursuing is not just one person, but love Itself. Just like the flower language of lotus flower that she loves is "innocence", this pure pursuit of love allows her to keep her heart pure forever. She didn't sit there, waiting sadly for the arrival of love, she darted out bravely , A never-ending pursuit. She can control the ever-changing love and give her lasting enthusiasm, far more full of life force than those who enjoy the sweetness and wealth of love. As Anne Molo Lindberg wrote That way: “Love is a power, it is not a result, but a cause.”
When a girl was a girl, Chiyoko encountered an injured painter who flees, he knocked her down in a hurry, and she fell on the snow unsuspectingly. She fell into the sea of love that made her indulge her life. She really couldn’t tell what was special about him. She only fell in love with him when she saw half of his face covered by the brim of his hat. He whispered softly, palms The warmth made her awaken from an ignorant girl to a woman in an instant. She couldn't classify him into any kind of person. For Chiyoko, he couldn't use words to describe his appearance, appearance, and tone of voice. It is a unique existence in the world. He is innocent, beautiful, and indestructible, allowing her to open the infinite door of another world in the age of war. Before smelling the angelic breath, she was cowardly, She was timid and helpless, curled up in a cage where society imprisoned women at the time. She could be any girl on the street, living a peaceful life arranged by her mother. But she was in that barn, hooked her fingers with love, and decided I took the vow that has been entwined for a thousand years: "I must go to meet you again! "
Since then, she bravely embarked on the journey of chasing love, rushing to fate, and the rapidly retreating scenery set off her speeding heart. Go to Manchuria, ran to the north, and traveled through the ages. As an actress, she has played the role of a girl, a princess, a ninja, a prostitute, and a scientist. In the works she participated in, she will always be the woman who desperately loves everything. In the crazy journey of love, she will also be confused, fearful, and withdraw. She will always see the old man who is caressing the spinning wheel of fate, cursing and saying to her: "You will be burned by the fire of love forever. I hate it. You, and love you at the same time." Every time she gave up hope and chasing, she could see the wheel of fortune crushing her body, weaving her unpredictable and unchangeable destiny. In her heart, she was not only afraid of fate, but also eagerly embracing destiny with open arms, not because of the so-called happiness, but because of the fate that made her discover the self who kept on loving and chasing, it turned out to be so. Close to eternity. Men, women, careers, cravings, jealousy, and even time, all these see her nodding and surrendering, because love can conquer everything.
Love can tolerate, believe, hope, and endure, and "no amount of water can eliminate the hunger and thirst of love, even the flood cannot drown love" ("Solomon's Song"). Love is not an image that can be seen with your own eyes, nor is it a movement that can be heard with your own ears. Even if you close your eyes, cover your ears, and flee to the end of the world, you still can’t calm the images in your mind and the songs in your ears. As long as you stop running, it will impact your heart and tear you apart. The weak chest erupted. For love, you can never escape, you can't ignore it.
The loved one is happy, but it is a kind of happiness that is given. In the peaceful and joyful threshing floor of love, they have lost the ability to love, unable to cry and laugh with all their hearts, when love is far away At that moment, they could only bare their loveless hearts, and found out embarrassed that they had nothing. Whether it is Hiramatsu, Al, or the high-spirited suitee, they believe that they have the supreme power and eternal authority to control laughter and sorrow, but they never think that they are imprisoned by love on the throne and cannot move. people. Those chasers who are dedicated to passion, courage, pain, and brilliance are the ones who are allowed to freely enter and exit the door of love. The mysterious key can lead them to any capital they want to reach.
And love will never favor those who are waiting in the same place. Poe once said: "For those who love me and those who I love; for those who are experiencing deeply, not for those who are meditating. People; dedicated to all dreamers and those who have confidence in dreams and regard dreams as the only reality...". Yes, even if the Australian continent borders the African continent, the river starts to flow upstream, and the salmon sing on the street, they still have to love and chase.
Because love never stops.
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