I finally started to watch "Lily Week". I remember that I watched it patiently that night, because many times it was a silent shot, a large green wheat field in the picture, and a flash of melancholy on the faces of those children. I don't know why, I've always been a little indifferent to watching the fire from the sidelines.
Until I saw the last Lian Jian in the crowd at the entrance of the concert, he suddenly discovered that the boy who was as melancholy and vulnerable as him on the Internet, and the green cat who sought comfort in Lily Zhou’s music with him, turned out to be the one in front of him who had always been bullying. He played tricks on his little bully Hoshino; saw Lianjian standing at the entrance of the venue, listening to Lily Zhou’s "I see you, you see me" from a distance, as if seeing something, which was losing quickly, until it collapsed in an instant. ; Seeing that he finally rushed through the chaotic crowd, and pierced the dagger deeply into Hoshino's body. The apple with the name of the website is full of Hoshino's blood.
Maybe children will have this kind of experience on the way to growth. They suddenly realize that their good wishes are so incompatible with the reality of this world. Because their world is still too small, a little bit of shaking is enough to bring earth upside down. earthquake. Therefore, in the eyes of adults, small things that are easily relieved can cause them so much harm.
Just like drowning people involuntarily grabbing a life-saving straw, at this time they often adopt two methods to avoid the pain that seems to be abruptly torn apart. After the journey that changed their lives, Hoshino chose to expand himself extremely, using extremely cruel and violent words and deeds to avenge everything the world had imposed on him-since it was so cruel, it simply became more than it. Cruel! But Renjian was the opposite. He quickly converged all his selves, and his soul shrank tightly into a ball, turning all his thoughts and desires into boundless silence and tolerance. He wanted to avoid conflict and deceived himself with the world. There is nothing wrong with it.
So in fact, these children who seem to be so different, whether they are violent or weak, whether decadent or wild, they are still connected in their souls, and they all have the same loneliness that cannot be recognized or interpreted. They all stood in the endless green wheat field, facing the wind alone, listening to Lily Zhou. There are gentle comforts in the singing, soft sighs, and low murmurs. For them, it is their only one, a pure heaven outside the world. They are like fallen angels, where they can find a moment of peace. Habitat.
I can't forget that Hoshino listened to Lily Zhou and screamed fiercely at the empty wheat field. The sun was so shining, but he couldn't be warmed. His delicate face was almost distorted with pain. At that moment, he seemed so fragile and depressed, he was no longer that domineering boy.
I can’t forget the pure smile on the face of the girl who was forced into prostitution when she looked at the kite flying in the sky. She then jumped down from a height and died peacefully. At the end of her life, she finally had a brief moment. Of flying.
Dreams and hopes are so awkward that the children have to find relief in music and comfort in the illusion. In real life, it seems that only those extreme behaviors can give them short-term pleasure and vent the pain that can no longer bear in their sensitive hearts.
Throughout the film, there are constantly flashing characters, and different people are constantly confiding their hearts on Lily Zhou's website. These are all lonely and helpless children. They can't find an outlet in reality. They can only put all the unspeakable confusion and pain in music and the Internet; the gap is so insurmountable, they can only let the soul be intimate in the illusion get in touch with. Lily Zhou has become a way of communication here, a kind of password for communication, allowing them to easily find friends who know each other here.
It turns out that we can only love each other in illusory happiness after all. And once back to reality, the cruel is still cruel, the weak is still weak, and all the unsatisfactory things can't really disappear because of temporary escape. We can hug tightly in the illusion, but still be indifferent and relative in reality; we can talk to our heart's content in the illusion, but still remain estranged in the reality; we can communicate in the invisible communication, but still hurt each other cruelly in the reality .
In fact, it's not just these children, why is it not like this in the adult world? We rely on some illusory, vague happiness, and indulge in those wonderful illusions from time to time, to resist the unspeakable emptiness deep in our hearts. It's just that we are not as dedicated as they are, so we can calmly accept the separation between illusion and reality. When we turn around and leave, we may feel sad, but not so easily heartbroken.
But for Lianmi, the moment the illusion was disillusioned was so heartbreaking.
For a long time, he can silently endure Hoshino's torture and torture, yielding and patience again and again, it seems that as long as he still has Lily Zhou's singing around, he can also talk to each other in the ether, share music, and life can continue. However, all of a sudden everything was exposed, and he was ruthlessly pointed out to him the truth behind all the illusory happiness. He is like Adam who was exiled after eating an apple, and could no longer return to the Garden of Eden where he lived.
All the moving and gratification became so ridiculous and meaningless for a time. All beliefs and expectations have also become unrecognizable as the mystery is revealed. He could no longer escape the extreme division in his heart. All the desperately suppressed self rolled up at that moment and finally drowned him. He lost the green cat forever, and the stabbing was so deep and determined, like the despair in his heart.
At the end of the film, those characters were still flashing quickly on the screen. They were new names, but they were saying similar feelings. Hoshino is dead, Renjian no longer speaks on the Internet, and the angels will leave heaven after all. But in this world, there are still so many incomprehensible children growing up alone. They still feel confused and confused in their lives, still eager to find comfort in Lily Zhou, and still embrace and love each other tightly in this illusory happiness. Until one day, they had to start to face reality and had to leave.
Only the green wheat field, and those floating in the wind, shouted and sighed in despair
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