Then there was silence and tears flowed silently...
I would be afraid when dusk came. I also cry when I miss someone. I also feel overwhelmed when confronted with the difficulties that pile up on my shoulders. When I am sick, I need someone to take care of me, I need someone to comfort me when I am sad, and I need someone to accompany me when I am lonely. Even when I spend the weekend alone in a big room, I hope that someone can stand in front of me with a smile and pull me out for a walk. on the fields of blooming flowers. When the light bulb is broken, I want someone to replace it with a good one. When the faucet leaks, I want someone to tighten it for me. When I encounter small bugs, I want to scream and run away, but no one helps me replace the light bulb and screw it. The faucet hits little bugs, so I have to do it all myself. I used to be such a self-reliant person, how much I needed someone to be by my side all the time, clumsy in life, emotional fragility, and psychological loneliness, I felt that I couldn’t deal with it alone. Watching the fleeting years change, watching Shaohua grow old, who dares to say that there is not a vague fear and worry in the heart, if there is someone who can quietly accompany and rely on silently, everything will be less sad——it will be less so alone.
But who is not alone, how many people in this world are really not alone? Isn't everyone on the road to happiness every step of the way? How many people can always be accompanied, cared and comforted by someone on the road of life? Loneliness is a state of existence. In those late spring or late autumn evenings, in those afternoons when the rain stopped before the sun came out, in those sunny but boring mornings, and even in those early mornings when the morning breeze was clear and cool, there was still a long dark night outside the window at the time of dreaming. At midnight when the sun has not yet risen, in so many moments, even if there is one person and a group of people around, who can say to himself so honestly and candidly, I am not alone? Can the person holding hands know all the details of my heart, can the person who accompanies me through the evening understand all my sorrows, can the person who helped me change the light bulb and give me a warm life can understand my past And those deep scars? Can those loneliness be dispelled by simple companionship and presence? Those loneliness that pervades from the depths of the years and is saturated with the unspeakable sadness and loneliness in life are the only and biggest obstacle to the happy years. Can it be so simply resolved into the invisible? There are many times when the words on the threshold of the heart cannot even be spoken, how can they be dismissed?
So is there really nowhere to go? In addition to these lonely years, and the beautiful vision of the past or the future, can you only be so miserable and sad? It doesn't seem like that...life doesn't leave people dead...it's not like that.
I've never said that I'm unhappy, when asked about it or asking myself, I've been answering that I'm fine, I'm happy, I'm not very alone, at least tolerable. Even listening to the song, I will choose the song called me very good, and even the saddest moment, I will recall the beautiful past-the things that have happened will never be forgotten.
I still have relatives. Although we are far away, at least I can hear their voices and see their smiles at me. Even with my relatives in another world, I still have photos that I can rewatch, and I have memories filled in my heart. I also have a warm family, there are some people I love and love living by my side, I can see smiles when I want to see, I can be warm when it is cold, and I can be comforted when I am sad. I want a lot of love, and if I can't get it, I'll keep looking for it. At least I am not unfortunate, at least on the way to happiness. So, like holding a bank debit card in my hand, I can at least think of myself as having a perfect and complete happiness, and then use my own strength to fill in those gaps little by little, those that require huge emotional motivation and strength inner strength to fill the void.
After many, many, many years, when I was getting old, I realized that the only one who can defeat loneliness is myself. Only oneself, the soul that is still fragile, weak and easy to feel lonely, can truly overcome the suffering and hardships on the road to happiness. It’s not something that can be done with just a few people standing by my side, and a person can still overcome the loneliness that follows him around—I am still strong, although sometimes I don’t feel like admitting it, and I don’t feel like facing the once very young, once Self in need of help. But I still smile when I am asked or ask myself, I am happy. These words are like a secret light, cutting through the darkness and loneliness, allowing people to move on with sadness.
I don’t despair when I am the most lonely, I don’t give up when I am the most miserable, I can still say that I am happy when I am the saddest, and I can still see myself and those who can’t see or even exist when I seem to be separated from the whole world. The imaginary relatives smile, and in the pain and loneliness they can still say that I am fine, I am not alone, I am happy. I think this is also an attitude to life, a way of life, and a road to happiness.
So I say I'm fine, I say I'm happy, so I hide my tears, but I show you my smile, so I always firmly believe that those lonely and lonely moments will eventually pass. There is a road, stretching from a strong and tenacious inner world, that leads to a bright and happy future after all. Maybe at this moment I am worrying, feeling sad, and crying, but this does not prevent me from believing in my heart that I am happy. Let those tears flow quietly, let those sad emotions be quietly revealed when they should be revealed, and let those uneasy, worried and fearful slowly leave. The person who wants to be happy in loneliness is the strongest person in the world.
People who want to be happy in loneliness - will be happy in the end.
So when I shed tears, I still say that I am not alone, that a person is very happy, but how can I not be alone? Sometimes I don't even say a word for days, I don't know if I'm still alive. Why do I keep saying I'm happy and I'm fine? Because if I don't, I'm afraid I'll go crazy and think I'm going to die. I also want to be happy, I want to laugh, and I want to be happy too.
That's it - I want to be happy too.
"My Damn Girlfriend" may not be a good place, but because of such a line, it is enough to make people unforgettable. In fact, in this movie, I saw Son Ye-jin's aging, and the loneliness of life in different ways. When I saw those tears shed, it was as if I was crying myself. However, when I heard this sentence, I felt that this movie is still worth watching.
When you see that there are still some people in this world who smile when they cry, pursue in the depths of loneliness, and still say that I am fine in the loneliest moment, that kind of tacit understanding and understanding is enough to support All the sighs that could not be supported for a while in the lonely years.
In the depths of the world, remember that I also want to be happy.
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