Fei Rui is recovering from mental illness. She has worked hard to integrate into her circle of friends to become a natural blender of her circle of friends. She has gone from neurotic self-denial and self-closure to confidently facing the eyes of others. She is sensitive from the heart. Selfishness has turned into optimism and self-confidence... She has been struggling, she has been looking for an outlet, she has always wanted to shrink herself into a ball and not be seen, she has always wanted to die, but she has been trying her best to save herself. She is fat, sensitive and inferior, and her special upbringing makes her hostile and afraid of the world. Her wild thoughts and subjective assumptions made her fall into endless self-denial and anxiety; she was very fragile, desperate for someone to understand her, she was stubborn, she was obsessed with her fatness, the goddamn shortcoming, she didn't realize that she was also wonderful. Her hysterical and morbid behavior and inner thoughts, but through this character, I saw the shadow of myself in the previous period of secondary illness, the self-centered neurosis, and I can't wait to prove that I have grown up and different, and made Many things that seem to be only mentally retarded now. Extreme self-esteem is actually an inferiority complex, unwilling to be ordinary and afraid of attracting attention.
It is better to rely on others to save yourself than to give yourself the affirmation of "you are strong and you are very good". Even if you have many reliable friends around you, the consequences of your own inferiority complex and conceited and arrogant mentality still have to be tangled and digested by yourself. If you can't do it, then wait to be slapped by reality. People are often defeated by themselves to the point of no redemption before they even start fighting.
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