Love of Siam.
If I, who went back ten years, can see such a film, what I see is not what I see in my eyes now. It must be the curious exploration of same-sex love, the struggling minds of the green times, and the nostalgia for far away and far away, these are above all.
And tonight, sitting in front of the screen, I saw only one mother and one daughter.
(1)
At the beginning, she was only regarded as a background that must appear. The only thing that is different from the normal background mother is that she is very beautiful. In addition, just like an ordinary mother you can meet in life, she is strict with her daughter: she is the ultimate arbiter if you want to stay and play with friends in the travel destination; the daughter who is away calls back and asks for more stay One day, the father still had no choice but to push it to the mother, and let her speak harshly. Strong towards her husband: The father was helpless to his daughter, and she was dismissed as lax discipline; after the accidental disappearance of the daughter, the father became increasingly frustrated by self-blame, from escaping from reality to drinking for the sake of drinking, she finally said, "I can't bear it anymore. loser" three words. Expectations for the son: try to remove the shadow of the daughter's misfortune from the son's life as much as possible, only ask the study coldly, and don't talk about her pain; The child, who was as young and lonely as her son, had a showdown and told him his various ideas, or arrangements, for his son's future.
However, all kinds of abominations, and what kind of soft compassion is behind it, just like every ordinary mother. Although he was worried, he finally agreed to his daughter's request and let her play freely, and no one knew that she was worried day and night. When her daughter called with the attitude of a little rogue, "I will be away, and the king's fate will not be accepted", she still gave her a chance, and only said next time, "If you lie to me again, don't think about where to play next time." When the accident finally happened and the father broke down because of his own guilt, she still faced the photo of her daughter with a calm face, but just sat down beside her daughter's former bed and hugged the pillow that seemed to linger with the smell of flesh and blood. sobbing. She made it all happen when her father, the head of a Christian family, decided to stop praying before meals and asked to move out of this sad place. When the father deceived himself and kept the assumption that his daughter was still alive, she only held back her heartache and told him the truth over and over again, looking forward to his awakening and return. She can't control her son's own thoughts and behaviors as he grows up. She just silently takes him to and from school every day, and insists on it a little bit. She couldn't get her husband to wake up and couldn't control his drinking. She just came home at noon every day as if she had forgotten something, as if by the way, she replaced the plates that her husband ate or didn't eat at will, and put fresh food again. , and the husband finally lifted his foot to the room where she took the plate, and found that the wife was quietly sending the rest of his meal, which had been cold, into his mouth.
In that little bit of time, in every inch of our life, where is not such a mother trying to fulfill everyone's wishes in one family, and forcibly stuffing her instinctual worries and uneasiness into the corner of her heart; When the chaos collapsed, supporting everyone's beliefs, and splicing their own heart-breaking lungs together? Those storylines may be unfamiliar, but who is unfamiliar with those words, those eyes, those gestures that take a long time to change silently in the air?
When the light passed, it was only in a virtual character that he could see his mother completely.
And which mother has not been as old as the person in the film, has an infinite future and longing, and imagines her daughter just like herself? How has time changed her, and her daughter, who should be by her side and laughing together?
(two)
Hong said on the phone, "I'll be back within 24 hours!" At this time, Hong, like me many years ago, was secretly glad to have received another exemption, but at the same time it was difficult to understand or never put her mother's worries to rest. in my big heart. In fact, it wasn't that she didn't know, but she thought that she would have countless opportunities to look back at her mother and comfort her in the real life that she had just embarked on. My mother just thought that one day she would understand. And no one knew that this opportunity was lost forever.
So when the red-like Jun appears, I am afraid everyone is secretly hoping that even if the plot is not as bloody as a vulgar movie, it will at least make Jun the salvation of this unfortunate family. Of course you are different from red. From the first meeting, my mother used her questions: "Where are you from?" "Who are your parents?" "What are you doing now?" "What was your last job? -- I need to know if you're up to the job." Broken any possibility of a bloody plot. Not without vibration, of course, but only for that second. From then on, the mother kept reminding Jun, perhaps reminding herself, of her identity as a stranger.
And the strange thing is you. Even in order to save money to study abroad, she doesn't need to endure this calm and almost callous mother again and again, when she obviously does more than "mother" expects, she silently allows her to do nothing but appease" Outside of "Father"'s working hours, she pushed herself out of the family life inhumanely, but she seemed to have no idea, just naturally took "Father"'s plates to the kitchen and washed them one by one , like in her real home. When the mother found that her father was bleeding heavily and her son was not present, she panicked for the first time and called Jun, and when he heard the call, Jun did not hesitate to run to this mother who never planned to have any emotional entanglement with her.
Who is she? Could she be the red one? Various plots push us away from this cliché answer again and again: the disappearance plot made up for "father" is from the movie, and only "father" accepts this explanation; Father"'s intentions and his own hilarity almost revealed the truth; most importantly, on the bench in the hospital, Jun finally said that his experience of losing both parents made us almost no longer expect her to be popular. . However, some grass snakes and gray lines always appear at this time, which is surprising: playfully pick up the dropped chewing gum back into his mouth; routinely make up the story of the family in the photo for "father", and "mother" "I found that it was consistent with the facts, so I questioned her. After walking out of the house, Jun's footsteps condensed outside the house for a second and seemed to be thoughtful; the story on the hospital bench was said by "mother" - you didn't make it up to comfort me. right? We, who have not heard the answer, seem to have new hope.
Or that's what the film is for. It doesn't matter if you are red or not. What matters is their identity as daughters. And Jun, if my mother ever assumed for a second that she was red, she must have thought that she is the grown-up daughter I had hoped for. She is finally independent, and can finally give her parents some real company and comfort sometimes; the courage and commitment she shows at those critical moments is something no mother would hope for; and, when her mother maintains the family with her own will , she finally persuaded her mother with a reasonable rather than a rascal attitude. Although she is no longer always a petite child, and her mother will definitely lose something because she can no longer be a one-way grace giver like she was a child, isn't she just waiting for such a moment after so many years of hard work?
So when the end of the film reads this in the family's traditional Tibetan note after leaving: "Too much love makes us make mistakes, but it's better than never doing anything for love. Now, isn't it? Life always gives us many opportunities to start over, and after learning from mistakes, you all have a chance. I hope you take it and care about each other more. Thank you for this time." I am convinced that this is A daughter, after growing up, understands the hidden hurt and debt caused by neglecting her mother's heart in the past. No matter who she is, what she has done has completed the redemption of being a daughter, and thus has finally become the redemption of this family.
I have to say that in fact, in the process of watching this film, I cried several times, almost all for this father. As for the part of mother and daughter, apart from the scene of crying while hugging the pillow, it is more about constantly reflecting the reality:
in the assumptions that do not exist at all, I can't help but make assumptions. Will the film make it clearer that the relationship between me as a daughter and my mother is not blindly contradictory? Just like sailing on the sea suddenly encountering another wave, will it push me in another direction? In fact, in the end, this assumption really does not exist, because at that time, I must not see these in the film. The inevitable process of life can only be understood by looking back.
Well, I really want to be glad that I saw it now; otherwise, how would I have met me now?
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