At the wedding scene, the atmosphere became joyous, but Lily could not experience this atmosphere, whether it was the indifferent smiling face squeezed out by her mother, the nervous excitement and sharp smile, or the care of her father, the greetings from her lover, everything was all Unable to reach her heart, her heart seemed to be disappointed, and her sorrow was sealed up, which made her unable to feel and express emotions normally. Therefore, seeing her father still drinking and the endless quarrels of her parents, she started again. Self-harm. Only through self-harm and feeling the little pain she brings can she alleviate the greater grief in her heart. Yes, the fragile Lily can't change her alcoholic father and her ignorant and incompetent mother, but she can at least hurt herself by using a hot water bottle. When I scalded myself, there was a trace of satisfaction in the expression distorted by pain.
But this is not a long-term solution. Lily wants to escape this repressive environment. She goes to find a job. Although she has never had a work experience, she still tries firmly and encourages herself in the mirror. In fact, it is not so much In order to escape, it is better to say that it is a survival instinct.
So she met Edward, and the two extremely tense and charming faces met, and almost filled all the pictures in the future. He looked at her, as if he saw a lost soul, maybe he also saw himself, he felt compassion, and the story happened like this...
She was still like a child at work, she liked talking to herself, she couldn’t stop herself. Licking her tongue, playing with her feet, often playing with her hair, children have these because they lack self-control, often indulge in fantasy, and her mental age is because of incompetence, and her parents have not been able to get it. growing up. But Edward treated her as a human being, cared about her, and slowly trained her.
Insight, elegance, kindness, introversion, fragile but strong. This is my evaluation of Edward. I said that he saw kindness because he saw the problem with Lily from the beginning and saw the possibility of Lily's change. It was reflected in the period when Edward's wife appeared. At that time Lily was answering the phone, and the other party was an insincere client, but Lily accepted the insincereness of the other party-the lawyer's wife pointed out her state sharply, and after yelling at Edward, Lily immediately grasped a strong band of strength. The excitement came, and after letting out a harsh word, she fell off the phone heavily, which showed that the seed in her heart had not died. Once there was rain and sunshine, her mind would grow rapidly.
"I must tell you, don't hurt yourself anymore, everything is over, I want you to get off work early, walk home by yourself, relax in the pleasant air, you need to relax yourself, right?"
This is Edward's Teach, like a gentle father.
She became sexy because of self-confidence and relaxation. She enjoys the excitement of being punished more and more, and she can face life fearlessly. (The performance of the two people has a tension that bursts out at any time, and the provocative background music makes people feel smooth.)
But the problem arises, she begins to rely on him, and besides love and care, he seems to also At the beginning, I wanted to seek happiness in Lily-his own unique happiness. Both of them got the stimulation they needed in the abuse and abuse.
But after she went to him to add another request for satisfaction that night and was rejected, he began to feel that it was a burden, a threat, yes, she was breaking into his life and ruining his long loneliness, so he threw it away The red pen is a thing of empathy, representing a sadistic authority, the source of pleasure, and the temptation to release desires.
She still wanted to tease him, but he started to treat her like an ordinary secretary. She understood that the dose was not enough and could only increase the dose. She found a large earthworm and put it in the envelope, which was a big bug.
He found that he could no longer continue. He could not allow the relationship between the two of them to reach a new balance, but he knew how to end it. He shot her and hit her, completely showing that he had no interest in her, and he declared to her, Everything should stop, she was fired!
She returned home and was about to get married, but she found that she couldn't fall in love with Peter in her heart. She was very good, but she was a guy who lacked strength. She is determined to find her true love. The plot showed ups and downs again, and she confessed to him. She became the offensive side, and Edward was forced to defend. The final decisive battle fought between the two of them-the two sides of the war were Lily's indomitable loneliness, the love that did not leave behind, and his loneliness, which was as long and hard to destroy as his ice.
"Inner pain must surface. When you find inner pain, you can feel alive. Discovering pain is conducive to recovery."
Edward said so, but unfortunately he didn't really do it. He lacked fearless courage, but On the contrary, Lily is the one who truly adheres to this sentence. She dared to pursue what she wanted instead of being afraid of pain.
"Either way, I always suffer, and I don't know why, but I know that I am no longer afraid of suffering. I know that you are also suffering, and I want to love you." This is the voice of Lily's love, Edward Finally, the last line of defense was removed.
The ice began to melt, the smoke gradually dissipated, and the sun spilled into the room through the window. It was another harmonious and bright morning. Lily looked at her husband who was away, and immediately turned her eyes (that is the gaze of a winner). For each of us. Yes, it takes courage not to fear pain and suffering to pursue what you really want. I did it. So, what about you?
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