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In the past two years, there has been a very popular Internet phrase: so good-looking, it must be a boy!
There are also some words that were originally only used on girls, such as makeup, exquisiteness, beauty, etc., but there is no sense of disobedience on some boys.
Skin care products, hair maintenance, sun protection, and perfume sprays, compared with these "exquisite pig boys", many girls feel ashamed.
Beauvoir wrote in "The Second Sex" that "a person is not born a woman, she becomes a woman."
Perhaps, the same logic applies to men.
Just like not long ago on the Internet on the topic of "girlfriend", opinions were polarized.
If you just pay attention to dressing up, you will be criticized by thousands of people. If you really want to become a girl as a boy, what will happen?
This is a phenomenon that the following film is trying to reflect -
"girl"
The film is Belgian director Lucas de Hoot's feature debut and won four awards at last year's Cannes Film Festival:
Un Certain Regard Best Actor, Queer Palme d'Or, International Film Critics Fabisi Award (Un Certain Regard), Golden Camera Award (Best Debut).
At one time, four people were amazed, and the scenery was infinite.
The protagonist of the film is called Lara, 15 years old, with delicate facial features and beautiful face, with smooth and supple blonde hair.
She has a cute little brother and a loving father, and she studied ballet at the best dance school in the country.
Lara, like all 15-year-old girls, loves beauty and will use a needle to pierce her ears on her earlobe so that she can wear beautiful earrings.
It seems that Lara is an extremely lucky winner in life, enough to be envied.
But as the film's plot progresses, we discover that Lara is actually a boy. Beneath her seemingly calm and beautiful exterior, Lara is bearing great pain.
She has a medical team and needs to regularly go to the hospital to receive estrogen and ask the doctor when the sex reassignment surgery will take place.
Since she only started formal ballet training at the "senior" age of 15, she needed to make extra efforts: pressing her legs as soon as she woke up, and insisting on dancing even if her toes were rubbed and covered in blood.
In the new school, other students need to be told their real situation, and the teacher will ask other girls if they want to share a bathroom with her.
When dancing, you need to wrap your genitals with tape, and the high-intensity training every day has already scratched the skin there and bleeds.
Lara resists sharing the bathroom with other girls because she admires her fully developed breasts and is too embarrassed to show her flat breasts even with high doses of estrogen.
When she went out with other girls for training, they asked her to take off her pants to reveal "that job".
When the younger brother is angry, he will subconsciously call out her previous boy's name "Victor".
Why Lara can endure this, we can find out in the impressive conversation she had with her father.
After taking estrogen for a period of time, Lara found that it had no effect. She was very depressed and could not sleep with her father in the middle of the night.
"You're brave and you'll be a role model for a lot of people."
"But I don't want to be a role model, I just want to be a girl."
Being a girl was Lara's entire dream. For this she was willing to endure those physical and psychological pains.
You could say she is lucky.
She has the best dad and brother in the world, studied ballet at the best dance school, friendly classmates, and a medical team that keeps an eye on her body.
But she was unfortunate.
Becoming a girl, a dream that is not a dream in the eyes of countless people, but here Lara has to pay a painful price.
Even in today's advanced medical technology, even in a tolerant and open western country, even if she has an extremely enlightened father, even if the most brutal scene in the film is just a group of girls asking Lara to take off her pants out of curiosity rather than discrimination.
When all objective conditions are set to be optimal, and Lara, as a transgender person, still bears great pain, it is conceivable that there are countless people in the world who are like Lara, but cannot have these optimal items at the same time, or even have nothing at all. man, how miserable.
And that's what "Girl" is all about.
Use the best setting to tell the loneliest war.
Every time Lara grows comes blood and questions about her identity.
Pierced ears, rubbed feet while dancing, bleeding from private parts... Until Lara finally cut off her genitals with scissors, it was all accompanied by blood.
Yes, in the end Lara mutilated herself.
An incomparable love for ballet and a huge desire for the female body made her unable to wait for the sex reassignment surgery that doctors postponed again and again, and had to do it herself.
In the film, Lara looks at herself in the mirror several times.
In the bedroom, in the practice room, in the bathroom, in the ward... Every time I stare in the mirror, it is a further deepening of my identity.
Being yourself is a very brave thing, and for the LGBT community, this is destined to be a lonely and tragic war.
Victor Polster, who plays the protagonist Lara, is definitely the biggest highlight of the film.
The actor is only 17 years old and has a background in dance.
With a slender body that has not yet been fully developed, and a smooth and delicate face, Victor, who is dressed as a woman, is simply a beautiful little beauty.
Only when dancing ballet, the clear muscle movement of his hands betrayed his "manly body".
Not only is he unique in appearance, but Victor's acting skills are also remarkable.
Lara's disgust when facing her own body, her love for ballet, her forced smile when she pretends to be calm, her yearning for female identity, as well as her strength, willfulness, and self-esteem, are all well explained.
Therefore, the best actor in a focus unit goes to Victor Polster, which can be said to be the most suspenseful award.
In recent years, films that reflect the current life of LGBT groups have been favored by major film festivals.
"Danish Girl", "Ordinary Woman", "Please Call You by My Name", "Who Loves Him First"...
Lesbians, gays, bisexuals, transgenders... The lives of every "minority" are magnified by the camera to the audience, trying to win more for these people , and ultimately equal rights.
But compared with other the same themes, "Girl" is outstanding in that it is not overly sensational, neither humble nor arrogant.
The protagonist Lara has a very clear position on herself, and she has only one goal from beginning to end - I want to be a girl.
And this setting makes the film full of a natural and detached temperament.
The camera is not only aimed at pain, but also at yearning, at firmness and tolerance, and only in this way can the LGBT community reduce more slander from society and from others.
At the end of the film, Lara is walking in the underground passage, wearing a long beige trench coat, confident and elegant, and beautiful. The corners of her raised mouth, her slightly raised head, and her cowardly eyes were all filled with the satisfaction of getting what she wanted—
I wanted to be a girl and I succeeded.
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