Stuart replied: The day I discovered violence.
That day, young Stuart was chased back home by his two children who discriminated against him. Instead of helping him drive them away, his stepfather threatened him to solve it by himself. Later, the timid Stuart used his own power to drive away the two bad boys. At that moment, he realized that he was no longer weak. He said: "The day I discovered violence, I felt that I was more than 50 times stronger. After you are always bullied, called trash, and bullied for so long, you will find that violence is Things and the fear of violence, and madness, enough to bluff others. I used to put myself in a state of anger, so after six months, I found that I couldn’t stop, and then the madness would never be me again. I can control it." I
don’t know if you have ever tried such a feeling. You think you are weak and unable to face the distress in front of you, but there is no room for you to escape, so you can only choose to fight back. In the end It turns out that the enemy is not so strong, and I can't help but not so weak. At that moment, there was a real sense of accomplishment. This feeling cannot be explained by anyone who has never experienced it. This has to remind me of Ma Jiajue, a tragic figure who has been bullied by many and finally chose to fight back with violence. I believe that he is contradictory in the process of violence and must struggle, but he has no other way. Preemptive strike. It's just that he couldn't stop himself the most after the first attack. Humans tend to want slingshots, and the greater the pressure they receive, the greater the rebound strength. Violence is a kind of inertia, allowing you to continue this habit, you can't stop it, because once you lower your head, you will only be oppressed more severely.
Stuart, played by Tom Hardy in the film, seems to be an outcast of God. He has been suffering from bad luck from birth: muscular dystrophy, rejected and bullied by his peers at school, lost his father when he was young, was violated by his own brother, and later learned In order to use violence, he began to commit various crimes and even killed his brother. Even in prison, he was still subjected to unfair violence. This fate is difficult for anyone to accept, but Stuart did not choose to blame everything on others. He even said that many people had the same childhood as him, but they adapted to all of this, and then lived a normal, decent and meaningful life. Life. He just resented that he had learned the skill of violence, but he was too weak to discard it. "I don't know myself, sometimes I feel like I am the son of the devil. I let him live in my heart and I can't get rid of him anymore. I tried to burn him out or cut him off, but he just smiled and said' No, no, I'm not going!'Why did he leave? He doesn't want to be homeless either." He said helplessly.
It's a pity that everything is too late, the tragedy has been doomed from the beginning. Stuart used violence against the world to reduce the pain of injury, but found that his soul was more scarred and painful. His spirit has been deformed under the oppression, losing its original shape, and what is even more sad is that there is another person who looks at himself crazy but can't do anything, so he can only always go crazy for no reason, hysterical but extremely hated I hope to destroy myself in the body. Fortunately, he is also lucky. He still has a mother and sister who will never leave him, his grandfather and grandmother, and he has met Alexander before the end of his life, a close friend who can sympathize, understand, appreciate and help him.
Almost every sentence in the movie Stuart made me sad and heartbroken. The final recording came with this sentence: "All I expect is to lie down and die. I feel so filthy and terrifying. I hate and attack. Everyone who comes close to me. I just hope that, even once, I can escape this madness." Thinking of the rags, stumbling, dying, weak, insanity, poor Stuart, I almost cried.
I have to say that Tom Hardy's performance in the movie is really wonderful. He performed Stuart's pathological look and action words impeccably, which made people have to have a little pity for him.
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