It was one of those days where it a minute away from snowing and there's this electricity in the air. You almost hear it. Right? And this bag was just dancing with me . Like a little kid, begging me to play with it. For 15 minutes. That's the day I realized that there was this entire life behind things and this incredibly benevolent force that wanted me to know that there was no reason to be afraid, ever . Video's a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember. I need to remember. Sometimes there is so much beauty in the world. I feel like I can't take it. And my heart is just going to cave in.
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It was a wonderful day, and it will snow in a few minutes. The air is full of energy. Almost audible, right? This plastic bag danced with me, like a child begging me to play with him. Fifteen minutes. That day I suddenly discovered that there is a kind of life behind things, a kind of compassionate force, and let me know that in fact I don't need to be afraid, and I never need to be afraid. The film is not as good as seeing it in person, but it reminds me of it. I need to keep in mind that sometimes the world has so much beauty that I can't seem to bear it. My heart almost collapsed.
I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me, but it is hard to stay mad when there is so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much. My heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst. And then I remember to relax and stop trying to hold on to it. And then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupied little life. You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry. You will someday.
I guess I should be angry when I die, but the world is so beautiful that it’s hard to be angry all the time. Sometimes I can't bear it after watching it at a time, and my heart is like a full balloon that bursts at any time. Later I remembered to relax and don't keep trying to hold on. All the beauty washes me like rain, making me grateful for my humble and stupid life at every moment. You must not know what I'm talking about. Don't worry, you will understand one day.
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