you didn't have a word in front of him, you stared at him, watched every move of his
you picked up a phone, trying to dial that number you carved in your heart, your voice is trembling
and you reached to a strange voice
even that tiny simple surprise made you almot pass out
but you plucked up all your courage to wait for the right voice
just because you were so dying to hear him
even the fear was so overwhelming
but he was not there
or even worse, he was there and asked you to wait for the reply
of course he never called
it is so common when you were young
when you cared so much, it made you stupid
you called at midnight, telling him you were mature enough to hook up with some random guy you met at the bar
but the point is, he never gave a shit
he didn't bother to be polite, he hang up on you and told you never to call
you wanted to be equal to him
while maybe it has to take years for you to understand that it doesn't mean to ruin your own life
but it was a start, you were trying to be sophisticated
you began to know how to dress up, how to be cool and how to flirt
you even began to get the idea that you cannot make everyone happy in your life though the cost was that you have to hurt someone you care about
you lost your best friend, you disappointed your mom, but you have to when you wanna grow up and be what you want to be
that's the cost
and believe it or not, it was all probably began with a bastard you fell in love with
many years later after all these, maybe you cannot even remember his face
but you will remember that little you who was so timid and pale, in front of someone you loved, you were so young, so cute and so stupid
you will miss that moment, but you won't wanna go back
you've got that it was so not worthy it even if it was so sweet.
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