The movie Rocketman tells the story of the famous musical evergreen Elton John, whose real name is Reginald Dwight. The movie itself has a strong Elton John style, so when you watch the movie, you can feel and understand him more easily.
At the beginning, in the narrow corridor, from the dazzling light of the stage, Elton John with wings on his back and horns on his head rushed towards his face with flamboyant and powerful steps, walked into the psychological counseling group, and collapsed in a daze. Chair: "I'm Elton John. I'm an alcoholic, cocaine addict, sex addict, binge eater, shopaholic, prescription drug abuser, emotionally unstable."
On one side is a godlike singer, and on the other side is a broken patient. When we are curious about what happened, the counselor's words guide us to his childhood.
The busy and nagging mother was very insensitive to him, unable to respond to his feelings, and suddenly complained loudly about being late by her mother during the happy singing and dancing, a typical happy terminator.
His father, who was a soldier, occasionally came home and ignored him, calling him "that little boy". He wanted to please his father, but his father coldly called him quiet. He wanted his father to hug him, but his father cruelly humiliate him.
Parental incompatibility and later divorce, this family is like the song in "Rocketman": "Mars is really not a good place to raise children, it's terribly cold there, and there's no one there", everyone here is saying "" I want love", but everyone's heart is full of holes, unable to love, lonely and desolate, emotionally alienated.
He inherited his parents' musical talent, which aroused his mother's sporadic attention, but he had an obsession with his father, "I want to play for my father," and hoped that his father would appreciate his performance. In the dead of night, he imagined that he was conducting an orchestra, playing the piano in the eyes of admiration, and intoxicated himself. In this Mars-like home, the fantasy world made him feel a little warmer. In fact, every child is the same. When reality is too dark, fantasy will light up the sky, which is also the source of his rich imagination and creativity.
Grandma is one of the rare people who can give him appreciation and encouragement. This gives him some psychological strength, and he can feel it from the eyes he looks at his grandmother. When Elton John came to the Royal Academy of Music, he wanted to hold back, but it was his grandmother who gave him encouragement.
The divorce of his parents was traumatic for him. When his father left, he didn't give him a hug or goodbye, it was like he didn't exist. He was heartbroken. Seed, how difficult it is for him to accept such a lonely, no one cares about himself.
Later, he found his own belonging: rock music, not only to express his heart, but also to be accompanied by friends, especially Bernie. The two hit it off and seemed to be able to see the depths of each other's hearts. Such a high concentration of friendship is very good. Compensate for the emotional poverty in his heart and become his huge motivation, such as the song "He is my brother, let us live, let us live in peace", at this time he feels really alive, especially when Bernie can accept When he was gay, he felt completely accepted.
A new step in his career came to the Troubadour bar. Before the performance, he hid in the toilet and did not dare to go on stage. Often when people move towards new achievements or come to a new stage of life, they will feel a little weak. At this time, they have been recognized and supported. Experience, like a blessing, can comfort oneself through difficult times, but he doesn't have such experience. Sitting on the toilet, he doesn't know whether his performance will be like a disgusting poop, or a dazzling gift? Bernie gave him this strength and walked to the stage with a blessing.
The performance was very successful. The flying picture perfectly showed his physical and mental feelings at the time. The shy and inferior Elton John was like a child who was loved by everyone. He flew, so excited, so proud, and so unreal. , "Fly as high as a kite". This is a wish that was never fulfilled in his childhood. A child flying with outstretched arms. In the eyes of his parents, a child screaming for his father to lift up, I believe someone will catch him.
Just imagine if a person is in the air and doesn't believe that someone will follow him. . .
Although he is seen and admired by the audience and fans, what he really wants to be seen is his parents. When he saw his father and thought that his father finally recognized his achievements, his father said that the autograph was for others. When he crossed out Dad , and also crossed out his father in his heart. He reappeared yesterday. In his father's eyes, he still does not exist. Behind his closed lips, there is unspeakable pain and gnashing hatred.
When he told his mother that he was gay, he hoped for his mother's blessing, but his mother said that he was destined to be lonely and not to be loved. To make matters worse, the lover also abandoned him at this time, a series of injuries brought him from the fantasy world to reality, he broke down, drug addiction, alcohol addiction, drug addiction, no matter what method, to change his state immediately, he was in. Trying to maintain the same amazing feeling as before, he has to struggle to make himself a little better by himself, deny the weak Dwight, show arrogance and arrogance, the performance costumes at this time are extraordinarily exaggerated, the performance is getting more and more crazy, Can't stop, can't stop, this is the last layer of protection of his dignity, it is already unclear whether he is driving the performance or the performance is driving him.
He became a lonely Rocketman, accompanied by high achievements and honors like a kite, and sank to the bottom of the hustle and bustle of the crowd, where he met his childhood self, which is also his true inner appearance. No one has heard his voice since he was a child. , buried deep in the water. In his childhood, he used fantasy to support his fragile heart. You can see that the child who plays the piano safely underwater is omnipotent and nothing can hurt him. In reality, this injured Elton John is so easily broken. Anger, hostility, depression. . . It is only when he is understood and seen that these fragments are reunited into a whole, strong, stable Elton John who is loving and confident, loving himself and the world. For example, when Renata saw his sincerity and openness, when he saw his loneliness, his eyes gleamed. At the same time, the cold mother's sentence "how disappointing to be your mother" can also easily break him. When he walks into the toilet with a rage, that anger can kill himself. In fact, he almost did, until he decided to get treatment.
Later, he began to slowly accept his ordinary self, or his true self, and reconcile with each character in his heart (rather than in reality). In reality, it is impossible to reconcile with everyone. Some people are incapable of love. Just like his parents, but he can accept in his heart that his parents are incapable of loving him and stop fantasizing about changing them. At this time, he has taken off his gorgeous decorations, dressed in ordinary clothes, no longer longs to be seen, and does not need to be so dazzling.
In the end, he embraced his childhood self. When he accepted himself and no longer expected the love that his parents could not give, he had the desire and ability to be responsible for his own life, give himself a hug, and give himself compassion.
To summarize: Elton John was never seen and cared by his parents since he was a child, and he was unable to get support and guidance based on reality from his parents. He was weak in his heart. He fantasized about a great self. Be the source of his creativity, with the resources of his talent and sporadic love, especially with the help of Bernie, he really started his singing career, ideals based on fantasy, like Rocketman, far from the earth, flying Very high, but lonely, and I don't know how long to fly in the indifferent space, it's like some flying and falling dreams, detached from reality and full of fear. So when he encounters setbacks and trauma, he will habitually maintain this fantasy and great self, no matter the cost, even if he uses sex addiction, drugs, alcohol and drugs to quickly get himself into a feel-good state, after all, the one who does not feel that he exists. The experience was horrible. In mental function, drugs, alcohol, and drugs are equivalent to substitute mothers, giving babies instant gratification, so they can become addicted, but never truly satisfied.
How he longed to be seen, and when Granny, Bernie, Rhett, and Renata resonated with him, it felt like his eyes were on fire, with warmth and power. The exaggerated glasses are also highlighting the "seeing" function of the eyes, and the gorgeous costumes are trying to attract attention. These also explain his need for an uncommon, exaggerated, emperor-like image. He fantasizes that if he can do this, he can To be seen, and the only way to be seen, to have a great feeling, and the true self hides behind this gorgeous appearance, so he is very sensitive and vulnerable, until one day he gave up that fantasy in despair and let Feather Pieces fell, returned to the ground, returned to the ordinary self.
In fact, the process from receiving treatment to accepting yourself must be long and difficult, and it will never be as simple as in the movie.
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