- "A Fei Zheng Zhuan"
"Days of being wild" is the English name of "A Fei Zheng Zhuan", but the English name seems to be closer to the movie itself - those free and casual days. Ah Fei is a word that people often used in the 1990s. It probably means a gangster, a person who is sensual and intoxicated.
"I know Cheng Dieyi coldly and warmly, and Leslie Cheung does not distinguish between people and dramas." When I wrote this film review, I realized that his films really cannot be separated from life, and it has long been unclear whether life is like drama or drama is like life. I was such a small child when countless people were crazy about him. Probably only after watching Hong Kong movies in the 1990s can I know that this man is truly magnificent, and those eyes flow, even Tony Leung can't compare. At that time, the entertainment industry was not so complicated. The super-luxurious lineup composed of Leslie Cheung, Tony Leung, Maggie Cheung, Carina Lau, Andy Lau and Jacky Cheung was not as utilitarian as it is today.
The tropical rainforest in the Philippines and the quiet background music at the beginning of the film appear again when Xu Zi dies at the end of the film. In fact, that harmonious and peaceful appearance is what Xu Zi yearns for. Those indifference and disdain are just a way to protect yourself. I remember reading a supporting character in a book and said: "Since when did you stop believing? In the past, no matter if they kicked me or hit me, I would have believed that they would always treat me well, but since when did I start not believing it? Now? Hurt yourself before you get hurt, and betray others before you get betrayed. Yes, I've always survived this way, but now that I think about it, I'm actually just scared, right?
Actually, it's just because of fear. He So aloof and unapproachable, always approaching when others are lonely, and leaving immediately when others fall in love, he plays with life, his eyes are always decadent, but in fact, these are all because of low self-esteem? The fate of being abandoned makes him forever There was no way to believe in himself, he thought that a person like himself could never be happy.
In fact, how kind he is, he asked Andy Lau to tell Maggie Cheung: "Tell her, I have forgotten all those things." Will the girl cry when she hears this? There will be resentment, but how long will it take to know that it is his greatest mercy to her? "It's good for everyone." If he played with him, he wouldn't be sad, but she and Carina Lau were serious. Maybe he didn't want to be a drag, and he didn't want others to be unhappy together.
"I heard people say that there is a kind of bird in the world that has no feet. It can fly and fly all the time. When it gets tired, it sleeps in the air. This kind of bird can only go to the ground once in its life, when it dies." After saying this, he started dancing. It was a free and casual dance, maybe he really was the footless bird at that time.
He never believed that he could be happy, and the fate he willingly accepted was actually created by himself. He was always running away from what life was really like, running away from himself—since it was already like this, it wouldn't be so bad, so be it. He will never know what is in his heart until he has to face it. Maybe he will understand one day if he lives, but when he is dead, he will always live in that youth, singing songs in the wind that no one can understand.
Zhang Manyu asked him: Will you marry me? His eyes became lonely in an instant, where is the unhappy person, obviously the person who refuses happiness. He always thought that he was the bird without legs, whoever fell in love with him or whoever he fell in love with was his tie, and he thought that only in this way could he fly freely. He always pursues freedom, thinking that he is in control of his own life, but life is sometimes so helpless, but sometimes it happens to be himself that people don't understand the most, and the peace of that rainforest is what he yearns for, if not for the greed for warmth , how can you find those two girls?
It can be replaced by the selfish thoughts of the audience. If he accepts her and lives an ordinary and beautiful life, how will this story be moving.
"You used this excuse before as a human being, and from today you can't use this excuse. Fly as far as you want, and don't let me know that you are lying to yourself one day." He kept asking who his biological mother was, But when he found her, his biological mother refused to see him. He didn't look back when he left his biological mother's house, "I know there must be a pair of eyes behind me looking at me, but she doesn't give me a chance, and I won't give her the chance."
I always thought that Xu Zai's fate was doomed when his adoptive mother told Xu Zai that he was not her own. He started directing his own fateful life. I just want to know, what was he like before knowing this? Have you ever had a naive smile?
"You really can't live without being crazy. Singing is crazy, not fake, but if you are alive, you are crazy, in this world, in this crowd of mortals, how can we live." This is the paragraph in "Farewell My Concubine" What Xiaolou said to Dieyi, whether it was Xu Zai, Dieyi, or Leslie Cheung, was very suitable. There was no distinction between people and roles, and they were all people who did not belong to this mortal world.
I don't understand why he chose the ending that made countless people sigh in real life. But I think that maybe the distance from worldly life is the source of his pride, and it is this distance that makes him. Everyone needs different things. We pursue ordinary happiness. He would rather endure the pressure forever than lose himself, who stubbornly guards his own paranoia and determination, and has enough courage not to keep it for himself. A little retreat - if you give up these, you will become a mediocre person, and may have ordinary happiness, but unfortunately he is not willing to be lonely by birth, how can he allow himself to be mediocre. Mediocrity is the real despair for him.
He has too many hot emotions and sharp perceptions, but it is difficult to walk well on the road of life. Then we "should be jealous of their talent, or should we be glad of our mediocrity?"
Is this a decisive life what he wants? What does he want?
I finally know that when I saw him in the movies, when I heard his various versions of the story in the crowd, I always thought he only existed in those movies, and never thought about his life other than the movies. how is it. The real him behind those images makes us unfamiliar after all. Everyone just watched from a distance, and no one could touch it.
Want, what is it?
Zhang Manyu asked him, "Will you marry me?" She didn't get the answer she wanted, she said, I won't come back to you again. But she finally found him again and told him that it doesn't matter if you don't get married, I just want to be by your side.
"I'm not the kind of person who wants to get married. Why do you want to accommodate me? You can accommodate for a while, but not for a lifetime. You will not be happy with me."
It was just that he saw it too clearly. Maybe he had seen his yearning for plain happiness, but compared to now, he couldn't accept that kind of himself.
Maybe I'm utilitarian, and I always see movies as symbols. Who didn't have those youths? Even I had the days when I deliberately laughed and thought I was A Fei; I once asked a person I liked for a phone number, and tried to get to know him; The child of the old man, clinging to his past mistakes and refusing to let him go, thinking that he would not be happy; he also found countless reasons to indulge himself, and he was confused and could not see what he really wanted...
Maggie Cheung finally dialed the phone, She wanted to find Andy Lau. When he was a police officer, he told her that I was near the phone booth at this time every day. He did wait for the call. Every time he passed the phone booth, he would wait for a long time, but when the phone rang, he was no longer waiting. , he thought she was gone. No one has ever experienced such misses and mistakes.
The last long shot of Tony Leung seems to have nothing to do with the whole story, but the camera captures another person, he has nothing to do with everyone in this film, he combs his hair, he puts the playing cards in his pocket, he leaves the house, and again There is a story going on.
Those left behind always have to continue to live. Xu Zai's whole life is just a fragment of everyone. From then on, Maggie Cheung and Carina Lau's happiness has nothing to do with him, although they both cried for him, and they all held tightly behind him. Follow, but he is a man with wings, he has been flying in his own world, they may never even see him clearly, how can they catch up?
Xu Zai can stay in the eternal dream of a footless bird. Zhang Guorong is the same peerless elegance in everyone's eyes. It's a pity that we have to face life and endure the loneliness when we look back one day. .
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