Accompanied by the soothing and rushing classical music, Hester put a letter on the cupboard, took twelve sleeping pills, turned on the gas stove, and quietly lay on his side on the blanket laid out on the floor...
She recalls sweet scenes from her past love affair with Freddie. Freddie stroked her hand tenderly and confessed affectionately: "I really mean it. It's not just a lie. I really think you're the most attractive girl I've met." , you are the most charming girl I have ever met.)
Hester Collyer is full of enthusiasm and exuberance. She obeyed the family arrangement and married British lawyer William Collyer, an old man of the same age as her father. He grew up in a traditional British middle-class family and obeyed his mother's teaching very much. Everything follows a "safe" criterion.
This conservative and boring family ran counter to Hester's nature and made Hester feel depressed every minute and every second. Her heart is full of vitality, and she cannot live in such a lifeless environment.
After World War II, Hester met retired pilot Freddie Page. Hester, who lives empty and lonely, and Freddie, who is handsome and humorous, fall into an incoherent love. Due to the desire and pursuit of passion, Hester is deeply attracted to Freddie and gradually loses himself.
The matter was soon discovered by William, but he was unwilling to divorce, so Hester abandoned his husband and lived an illegal cohabitation life with Freddie. After a happy life full of passion and sex, the relationship between the two gradually changed.
Hester is getting more and more infatuated with Freddie, making Freddie feel an invisible bondage, and his love for Hester is slowly cooling down. Hester felt the gap between the two, and it was so painful that she fell into a kind of unbreathable grief. She has regarded Freddie as everything in her life. If she loses Freddie's love, she will lose her sustenance and even cannot live. She can't control herself not to ask for more love.
Freddie, a retired soldier whose life came to a standstill with the end of the 1940 war, was obsessed with what happened in 1940, and at the same time couldn't really be happy because of the war. When he first met Hester, Freddie was attracted by her beauty and enthusiasm, he pursued Hester frantically, and finally got Hester's love. But Freddie's nature is unfettered, he can't be as desperate for an idealistic love as Romeo, and he has spent his life avoiding emotional entanglements with another person.
After the passion, Freddie's love for Hester faded, and he began to look for ways to escape this oppressive relationship. He went golfing with friends, or stayed at a friend's house for a long time, so he forgot Hester's birthday.
Freddie has experienced ruthless fighting on the battlefield and witnessed the successive deaths of his comrades in arms, so he was very angry at Hester's momentary suicide.
After the quarrel, Hester begs Freddie to go back to the house with her and promises that he will not commit suicide again, but Freddie is unmoved. Hester walked in the middle of the night with tears in his eyes, gradually disappearing into the darkness, lonely and pitiful.
Freddie and Hester's romance is bound to break down. On the one hand, the gender difference between men and women creates an imbalance in relationships. Hester regards love as his life and can give up everything for love; while Freddie only regards love as a part of his life, and he still has what he wants to accomplish as a man, and he will not devote all his energy to love. On the other hand, the love between Freddie and Hester was only based on passion from the beginning, it was the meeting and comfort of two lonely souls, when the passion subsided, if the two sides did not have the desire to attract each other and continue to love each other, it would be difficult for the relationship to go further. developing.
Because of his loveless marriage, Hester is still addicted to this passion without knowing it, and he is unable to extricate himself from it. Hester, who is between the devil and the abyss, felt in a dilemma, and felt angry, resentful and ashamed of himself in his life, so in a desperate situation, he tried to choose suicide to obtain temporary relief, but after the suicide attempt, he felt contempt for his stupid behavior.
On the one hand is a caring and boring husband, and on the other hand is a childish and ruthless lover, Hester chose the latter, because her life needs passion, and she needs to use this morbid inner torture to perceive her love. She believes that love can't stand bland, only passion is the only way for love to go on, but passion is short-lived, which is also the reason why countless passion-loving loves are dying.
Hester lowered himself into the dust for love, but the door was locked. Knowing that Freddie was leaving herself to go to South America alone, she was very calm, but still wanted to make a last effort, she begged Freddie to go home with her tonight. It's just that when love really fades away, all efforts and retention are in vain.
Love is beautiful and worth pursuing, but there are many emotions and things in life that are just as cherished as love. As the landlady said: "There is always a lot of false love, and when it comes to true love, it's like crying in the dark; when bad things happen that you never expected, then keep your last dignity, y'all The days will go on. Suicide, not worth it."
Freddie finally left, he chose to go to a faraway place to continue his pilot career, this time Hester did not do too much retention, she retained her last dignity. After a night of pain, she pushed open the window, breathed in the fresh morning air, felt the vitality outside the window, and a smile appeared on the corner of her mouth. Old infatuation ends and a new life begins.
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